Went to Wraith's game last night. I thought I would be able to see Candy since it was a Friday and there was nowhere that she could go to... It's been quite some time since I last saw her anyway. However, throughout out the night, not once did I even see her shadow.
Somehow, I knew that she was in her room though. I know that the door to her room is always open when she's not around, but last night, the door was closed. I believe that she was in the room, after all, I could hear anime music coming out from it, plus the sound of someone speaking. I tried knocking on her door, and trying to open it, but apparently, it was closed (or locked, I figure its locked).
I wonder why she didn't even bother to greet some guests, or join in Wraith's game? Could it be possible that she's avoiding someone? If so, I wonder if its me, or Wraith? I have this feeling that she's avoiding me... I wonder why though... Of course, it could also be possible that she wasn't feeling well last night, or maybe she had something important to do and didn't want to be bothered. *sigh* And I was looking forward to seeing her...
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
You best represent a Sniper Rifle!
Sniper Rifles are best known for their ability to
take down a target in one shot with very high
accuracy. Modern sniper rifles are used to
disable vehicles by blowing really big holes in
the engine. Of course, these weapons are also
used to blow big holes in people. Snipers are
utilized in SWAT situations, especially when a
fugitive holds hostages. Hunting rifles are
also usually considered sniper rifles.
What type of gun are you?
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You would drown someone! That's, like, the most
torturous way! You know, a lot of people have
NIGHTMARES about drowning... meanie. Yay! Kill
people! Chinese water torture is pretty good...
have FUN, you evil person.
What's your ideal murder weapon?
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I'm thinking I'm feeling a bit jealous of Jason and Jamie. Nothing new here... I've felt that way with Cholo, Adnan, and even Aaron and Tennessy on occassion. Its my fault for not doing anything when I had a chance. Not that I really care right now -- I'm getting irritated with their presence. I feel like I can't stomach being in the same room with them, including Jamie's other friends. My mind's been poisoned into thinking negative thoughts.
I've been spending too much time with Lassie lately... Not only have I poisoned my mind into thinking negatively, but also with thoughts of her. How unlucky can I get? I really have to find a way to distance myself from all these thoughts that are in my head. I no longer wish to spend my time with these people. There's no sense because these people don't even want anything to do with me. I'd rather spend my time alone.
Ahhh... No more! Stay away from me!!!!
I'd rather go down and stay with Lassie in the driveway than to stay up here and listen to them... I'm damned if I stay here, damned if I go downstairs... Damn it.
I just remembered that Elbert must be editing the comments that get into his own blog. I was surprised to find my own comments gone from where it was supposed to be. Instead it was replaced with a more... wholesome comment from some other member of his group of friends. Perhaps that was the reason that Jamie was surprised when she checked his blog -- she maybe expecting some sort of reply from her own comments and was disappointed when she found that her comment was no longer there. As much as she denies feeling nothing more for him, she still keeps him in her heart.
What a hypocrite. Just like me.
Monday, August 04, 2003
Today has got to be the most senseless Monday that I've experienced in the semester so far. I was expecting to at least finish a few dangling homeworks in school today. Unfortunately, I arrived in school only to find out that the internet services for the special room has been cut off (albeit temporarily). It would appear that our teacher got pissed off last Friday for some stupid stunt that Nich pulled off and is punishing the entire class for it (not just the Friday class -- all the classes). Assumingly, the internet services was part of this punishment...
Thankfully, I had to attend a photo shoot for the yearbook this morning. At least I wasted close to 2 hours of my time accomplishing something this morning, even though I almost went insane with all the preparation it required. While I can tolerate putting on make-up for photo shoots, I just cannot find way to comb my hair properly (My hairstylist does it for me after I get my hair cut)... So I left it in its natural wet state, which turned out to be a problem because its hard to maintain... A minor problem during the photo shoot, really, it just annoyed me that all the people there fussed over my appearance.
At least that takes care of one photo shoot, now if only I can think of something for my creative post next week...
Because there were no computer terminals in the laboratory that could access the internet, I had no other choice but to go back down to the driveway and talk my mouth off. After finishing the new Marvel rulebook over the weekend, I was excited to try it out with the usual people -- Santi and Anton. They looked up to it, and if all goes well, I might be able to start character creation on Friday coupled with a sample game.
Of course, when Lassie arrived, I had nothing better to do than to hang around further at the driveway. My idiotic self is starting to return -- I can no longer ask my feet to lead me away from a location once Lassie arrives. Perhaps I should find a remedy for this disease. If my idiotic self manages to take hold over me, then I'm good as dead...
At least I managed to massage Lassie. It would appear that she swam over the weekend, and was suffering from muscle aches. Hopefully, I managed to relieve her pain, otherwise all that effort would probably have been wasted.
This afternoon, I managed to find Chico and SJ's gaming shop near Katipunan. With nothing better to do, I managed to convince Chico to teach me how to play the L5R card game -- it was a long time since I played that game and I couldn't remember many rules. They were helpful enough to give me a military Lion deck -- something that was easy to learn. Unfortunately, the deck that it was going up against suffered a lot of bumps during its play. I was expecting to lose a few games this afternoon, and take those losses as a learning experience. Instead I won a few games barely understanding why my actions were effective. Perhaps when I find myself with more money I'd buy a deck for myself -- preferably Crab.
During the course of this afternoon's tutoring, I was surprised to find Sebie come in to buy, of all things, cigarettes. Perhaps if I knew Sebie a little better I might be tempted to court her (she has a boyfriend right now, I think), she's a pretty chinese girl that's just my type. However, seeing her buy cigarettes, well, I just got a bit turned off with her... She's still pretty in my eyes, but the cigarettes get in the way.
She got interested with the cards layed out on the table though, and sat on Chico's empty seat (he was serving the other female customers that came in with Sebie to buy their cigarettes), eyeing the cards one by one mistaking them for Magic. Noting the difference, she asked me to teach her how to play the game. I told her I was just starting to learn the game and couldn't teach her. Too bad, I guess, because it seemed like she was really interested in it. Perhaps some other time when I get the chance? I was a little bit distracted with her though, because she kept on tapping the end of the back end of the cigarette pack (to "pack all the nicotine to the tip of the cigarette" if I remember the reason from other smokers). Even though she kept on insisting that the cigarettes weren't hers, somehow her body language told me otherwise.
As they were about to leave, I asked them to try to quit smoking. As usual, my words just fell on deaf ears.
Talked to Adnan tonight. Apparently, I was right when I noticed that Jason likes Jamie -- Jason's been thinking of a good way to court Jamie. However, I think that he was wrong to have stayed with them in the studio (I've been to the studio today to borrow a shaver from Lana. The place is just as big as the Master's Bedroom here at home). While Jamie may know that Jason likes her, it might not look nice when people find that out. They might say that he's taking advantage of the time they're spending in that studio...
Apparently, Jamie also knew I liked her. Adnan mentioned that it was obvious, I didn't think so. I told him in the first place that I liked Jamie. If I didn't tell him, I doubt he would have even known. I tried asking for Jamie's reaction when she knew though, but Adnan maintained that he's been sworn to secrecy about it. I wonder to what extent I should trust that person though. There's been a good number of things that he's been refusing to tell me, and there have been some complications lately...
Ha! Swearing secrecy to Jamie... I wonder how much that would be worth though... If I know Jamie, the moment that she hears something more juicy, she'd be willing to part with secrets from other people just to get what she wants. Or even worse, she'll bargain with an interesting bit of information in exchange for yours, only to hold out on her part of the bargain.
Is it any wonder I find it hard to treat people as people anymore? I feel like the world I'm living in is a gigantic excercise in Marxist Economics. Use everyone to your advantage.
How unfortunate that I never learned how to play that game very well...
Thankfully, I had to attend a photo shoot for the yearbook this morning. At least I wasted close to 2 hours of my time accomplishing something this morning, even though I almost went insane with all the preparation it required. While I can tolerate putting on make-up for photo shoots, I just cannot find way to comb my hair properly (My hairstylist does it for me after I get my hair cut)... So I left it in its natural wet state, which turned out to be a problem because its hard to maintain... A minor problem during the photo shoot, really, it just annoyed me that all the people there fussed over my appearance.
At least that takes care of one photo shoot, now if only I can think of something for my creative post next week...
Because there were no computer terminals in the laboratory that could access the internet, I had no other choice but to go back down to the driveway and talk my mouth off. After finishing the new Marvel rulebook over the weekend, I was excited to try it out with the usual people -- Santi and Anton. They looked up to it, and if all goes well, I might be able to start character creation on Friday coupled with a sample game.
Of course, when Lassie arrived, I had nothing better to do than to hang around further at the driveway. My idiotic self is starting to return -- I can no longer ask my feet to lead me away from a location once Lassie arrives. Perhaps I should find a remedy for this disease. If my idiotic self manages to take hold over me, then I'm good as dead...
At least I managed to massage Lassie. It would appear that she swam over the weekend, and was suffering from muscle aches. Hopefully, I managed to relieve her pain, otherwise all that effort would probably have been wasted.
This afternoon, I managed to find Chico and SJ's gaming shop near Katipunan. With nothing better to do, I managed to convince Chico to teach me how to play the L5R card game -- it was a long time since I played that game and I couldn't remember many rules. They were helpful enough to give me a military Lion deck -- something that was easy to learn. Unfortunately, the deck that it was going up against suffered a lot of bumps during its play. I was expecting to lose a few games this afternoon, and take those losses as a learning experience. Instead I won a few games barely understanding why my actions were effective. Perhaps when I find myself with more money I'd buy a deck for myself -- preferably Crab.
During the course of this afternoon's tutoring, I was surprised to find Sebie come in to buy, of all things, cigarettes. Perhaps if I knew Sebie a little better I might be tempted to court her (she has a boyfriend right now, I think), she's a pretty chinese girl that's just my type. However, seeing her buy cigarettes, well, I just got a bit turned off with her... She's still pretty in my eyes, but the cigarettes get in the way.
She got interested with the cards layed out on the table though, and sat on Chico's empty seat (he was serving the other female customers that came in with Sebie to buy their cigarettes), eyeing the cards one by one mistaking them for Magic. Noting the difference, she asked me to teach her how to play the game. I told her I was just starting to learn the game and couldn't teach her. Too bad, I guess, because it seemed like she was really interested in it. Perhaps some other time when I get the chance? I was a little bit distracted with her though, because she kept on tapping the end of the back end of the cigarette pack (to "pack all the nicotine to the tip of the cigarette" if I remember the reason from other smokers). Even though she kept on insisting that the cigarettes weren't hers, somehow her body language told me otherwise.
As they were about to leave, I asked them to try to quit smoking. As usual, my words just fell on deaf ears.
Talked to Adnan tonight. Apparently, I was right when I noticed that Jason likes Jamie -- Jason's been thinking of a good way to court Jamie. However, I think that he was wrong to have stayed with them in the studio (I've been to the studio today to borrow a shaver from Lana. The place is just as big as the Master's Bedroom here at home). While Jamie may know that Jason likes her, it might not look nice when people find that out. They might say that he's taking advantage of the time they're spending in that studio...
Apparently, Jamie also knew I liked her. Adnan mentioned that it was obvious, I didn't think so. I told him in the first place that I liked Jamie. If I didn't tell him, I doubt he would have even known. I tried asking for Jamie's reaction when she knew though, but Adnan maintained that he's been sworn to secrecy about it. I wonder to what extent I should trust that person though. There's been a good number of things that he's been refusing to tell me, and there have been some complications lately...
Ha! Swearing secrecy to Jamie... I wonder how much that would be worth though... If I know Jamie, the moment that she hears something more juicy, she'd be willing to part with secrets from other people just to get what she wants. Or even worse, she'll bargain with an interesting bit of information in exchange for yours, only to hold out on her part of the bargain.
Is it any wonder I find it hard to treat people as people anymore? I feel like the world I'm living in is a gigantic excercise in Marxist Economics. Use everyone to your advantage.
How unfortunate that I never learned how to play that game very well...
Sunday, August 03, 2003
You should be dating a Pisces.
19 February - 20 March
Your mate is loving and caring, trusting and
hospitable, and romantic. Though he/she can be
self-pitying, temperamental or dependent, the
fishes are quite romantic in bed.
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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And how many people I know are Pisces...? Yes, that's what I thought...
Your inner demon is you are fake. Whether it's
wanting to make every one believe you are the
best at everything or that you are really
tough. Someday when you let your gaurd down
it's going to come back and byte you in the
butt...watch out!!
What is your inner demon?
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Ugh. Ugly picture. Ugh.