I'm currently in Puerto Princesa, Palawan in order to enjoy a vacation. I certainly thought that I needed this vacation after all that time spent feeling stupid about myself.

So, after several months telling myself that I should stop feeling sorry, and that I should stop being stupid, I realize that its not that easy to do what I'm telling myself to do. In addition, I've already gone through this before, so it should be easier, not harder for me.

But now, I find that I'm constantly irritated. Just always irritated about something at the back of my mind. Irritated about the fact that Jenny is trying to text me to say "Sorry", irritated that Jenny is "trying to be friends", and irritated that Jenny isn't texting me more. Stupid, pathetic, and ultimately irrelevant, I know. Eventually, I'll be able to wash this all out of my system.

What I did get pissed off for, is the fact that I'm staying inside the same room as Luanne and Rye, and I find myself bothered. They had to pick this particular hour to start being sweet. I realize that I'm the one actually bothering them, for being in the same room during their vacation. They can be as sweet as they want -- they're a couple after all. I should respect that.

Instead, I find myself wanting to kiss Luanne, in response to my longing to kiss Jenny, and to avoid thinking that I want to have Djesie in the same room.

So yes, I just picked this time to vent a little bit, in order to avoid having a lot of stress in my system during vacation. That, and I wanted to activate Facebook Mobile on my Globe phone.

And I have several mosquitoes having a field day with my leg. That's annoying.