How long did I try to hide from everything that's been happening to me?

Around 3 weeks? Perhaps a month? It doesn't matter really... I'm still trying to escape from the truth that is around me...

I'm starting to get really affected with how Lassie is acting. That's really bad news, because that means that I'll suddenly start to grow morose when she's not talking to me. That means that I'm starting to fall for her again, and the last thing that I need right now is to fall for her... I don't need to wreck my life again...

Anyway, today is Eng's birthday. It seems like a lot of people have forgotten it, and she doesn't really want anyone else to be reminded of today's occassion... Suits me fine, I'm not really interested in talking to other people.

Other people, that means Jamie and Co. Not that I don't want to see them -- I can tolerate speaking to them individually and not as a group (except for Lana who is still an ass). I just don't want to speak to them, because that would mean that I've forgiven them for being elitists. I still can't get over that, I can't get over the fact that they could easily dismiss me (although in hindsight, I should have realized they could do that, if they could easily dismiss Lassie).

Damn... I sort of forgot what I wanted to say... I have to end this quick before other people come in and bother me. Before I get bothered by Lassie's presence in the room...